Buying a new Computer it’s pure hell

I never thought I would have so much trouble spending money, after al I am a women. I have the task of buying a new computer when I would rather be going on a long-awaited holiday..
My darling computer tech has told me I have to accept my baby is on his last legs (yes my laptop is a male, can be a right pain in the butt at times.I’m being nice) He tried to sell me a Asus laptop but not knowing what really is a good one I asked a friend for advice. His brother is a geek when it comes to these things..Well I took his advice written in my notebook (yes still use pen and paper, can’t beat it)..Holy hell now I am really confused. The lovely sales people who have targets and brands they have to get rid of tell you something else. I know I do have Dumb written on my forehead, but come on I’m not blonde anymore.

Ok I’m on a limited budget, only want to spend say around $1500.. I hear you say your not going to get much for that but that’s where your wrong..There are so many sales on at every store I think at times you can name your price not theirs. I would love a Mac but then again there are those that don’t like them as it is with everything. They are also a bit pricey (is that a word). My baby at the moment is a Acer poor thing is nearly 5yrs old, I thought that age was when the fun begun, not so when it comes to computers ..
I quiet like this one
HP 20″ All-in-one
Model: 220-1130A
Whether for work or play, HP All-in-one PCs are earnest about faster performance, amazing visuals and all-round versatility. With an ingenious space-saving design, it fits perfectly on your work desk, kitchen top or your kid’s room. * 2.5GHz Intel Core i5-2400S Processor
* 6GB DDR3 Ram
* 1TB Hard Drive
* 1GB Dedicated Graphics
It’s $1699 at Noel Leemings. A bit over my price range but I.m not to bad at getting prices down..It only has a 2.5GHz Intel Core i5-2400S Processor and was told I shouldn’t go below a i7 but don’t really think I need it. Don’t do graphics or gaming.

So as you can tell I really need someone to come spend my money for me. Is it a HP, Acer, Asus, Mac,Toshiba or even a Dell. I do like the Dell but I like to touch and see not just see, if you know what I mean..

Ok the wind is howling around outside windows are slamming shut so better turn off and go save the house..
Any ideas do let me know every word of advice is appreciated..

To reach such heights

To reach such heights

In life there are such highs and lows we wonder if we can ever each what we aim for. I’m sure we are all the same in how we feel when there’s a goal we want to achieve so badly. We think it through,we write it out step by step, we see it from all angles ,all the pros and cons. We got it worked out, it’s going to happen the universe is on our side. We do what comes next, share it with a friend a loved one, the excitement too much to keep to yourself. So what comes next, do we reach the high or do we crash.

Well if you are anything like me you crash more times than you’d like to admit.   I take my hat off to those I know that are out there living on their high. They have somehow managed to reach their goals. So I have to ask myself where do I go wrong, do I share my dreams with the wrong people, do they go off and complete my dream with someone else, or is that just my imagination playing tricks on me.

We have our personal goals that only we alone can achieve, if we fail we have no-one to blame but ourselves.  I am a person that likes to have not so much help, but just knowing there’s someone there that I can say “bounce the ball off” if you know what I mean. I have achieved a few of my personal goals over this past year but there are so many I’ve decided to just pick a couple and store away the rest for another time.   We are after all just human, some more capable than others. Oh to be able to find an easy way to get to the top and stay there life would be so much easier. I think a lot of how you get what you want comes not late in life,  but from what we take in early in life. I for one know why somethings are so hard for me now, as I have said before in past posts I didn’t listen in school, well I did but not as well as others. So that even affects the way I try to achieve things now, I have to take the long slow road and make sure if I come to a fork in the road, have to really think hard on which one to take. I do have a great belief in the universe, I’ve proved it to myself many a time.  Have to tell you the first time it showed itself,  was when I told a friend I’d been telling myself all day “when I go get the mail there’ll be a nice chq just for me and no bills” well yep there it was, a chq for $100 just for me I was over the moon. So yes you can change a lot in the way you get to your high, if you believe in it enough.

So tell me how do you reach your highs so there are not so many lows. Do you just get out there and do it, do your believe it’s yours before you even  achieve it or do you like me take the long slow road (hope not). Don’t forget these are my ramblings so if there is a mistake or two or three..believe it, it don’t matter..to me..:-)))

Photo taken by me Art Deco Air show 2011

Starting right back at the beginning

Ok so what does that mean, can mean anything, but for me it’s my education. It has taken me years to finely take the step to do something about my spelling and learning . Ok you can read other posts I have done and see the level of my ability to put words together..Yes pretty poor. But it’s not just spelling, it’s being able to learn what you are hearing, which is my biggest downfall. My ability to  retain information is very limited. Why I have no idea. I just put it down to a lazy brain. I have a tutor who is amazing and way patient with me. I have to say I have gotten somewhere in understanding words and how they are put together. When I say starting right back at the beginning, I mean at the beginning. Learning vowels, consonants, syllables so on… Now isn’t the a simple way of putting it, I have done that all my life. Finding a round about way to write a sentence without using words I really want to use. It will happen soon though. Just need to stop beating myself up and do it all just for me.

Unfortunately I was one of the unlucky ones that went through school without learning. It is so sad reading any statics from any country, on children leaving school not even knowing how to spell their own names. Those that learn and learn easy find it hard to understand, or think that we were just lazy at school. Well for a lot of us that is not true. The reasons range from a real disability to concentrate, called Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) being the most common.Being Dyslexic and Glue ear were big too back in the 70′s and 80′s.Sadly still is. But there are a million to one reasons from home life to just not being able to learn.The brain just doesn’t hear or understand what is being said. Adult literacy  is so big in our world today, and take it from me if you know someone just offer to help. People are too quick to call others dumb. You have no idea how much that hurts. We aren’t dumb just have learnt a different way to get through life. Some of the richest people in the world learnt how to delegate their creative ideas to those they knew could get them to where they wanted to go. Now that’s being smart to me not dumb. I had 24 great years hairdressing with no problems, think shows creative we can be.

It’s funny in my 20′s and 30′s I loved solving problems. Loved reading instructions and putting anything together. Still do like doing it but find I have to really think and read over and over before I get it. I had a very distressing late 30′s early 40′s, so have decided for myself this has effected my ability to do a lot of things. Maybe that is just an excuse but it’s mine, and I think we all need a reason for anything that gets us down.  I haven’t written this for anyone else really. It’s a way for me to write and get used to words. Trying to develop a love for words. That is something I have learnt, to learn words you need to love words. When you think about it it’s no different from taking on a new career. To enjoy your job you need to love it,need to want to go to work everyday. Well  really that’s the same for my learning, if I hated it I wouldn’t learn a thing. I read a few years ago a book by Ken McCarthy in it he say’s, “there are people who are unteachable” (is that really a word) I actually have to agree with him. I could give up really easily if there wasn’t something at the end of the tunnel that I really wanted, that was encouraging me to be the best for me. Which by the way is all the we can be. It can sometimes be easier to give up than to go forward. As we get older it is even harder. Time is running out so have to get on with it or have to many regrets not doing our best.

Well think I’ve gone on enough for now, will add a link to understanding ADHD. You will probably never spot it in an adult but very easy in a child. Do something to help them if you do, a helping hand can change a person’s life.

I’ll be back

I think I’ll go down to the garden!!

I Think I’ll Go Eat Worms

Nobody likes me, everybody hates me, I think I’ll go eat worms! Big fat juicy ones, Eensie weensy squeensy ones, See how they wiggle and squirm!

Down goes the first one, down goes the second one,
Oh how they wiggle and squirm!
Up comes the first one, up comes the second one,
Oh how they wiggle and squirm!

I bite off the heads, and suck out the juice, And throw the skins away! Nobody knows how fat I grow, On worms three times a day!

Nobody likes me, everybody hates me, I think I’ll go eat worms! Big fat juicy ones, Eensie weensy squeensy ones, See how they wiggle and squirm! Sorry folks a rhyme I just had to put on here. Hope I don’t have to eat my own words. oh sorry worms ))))

Reflections of Life

Sometimes there comes a time in our lives when we feel we need to reflect on our past and future.  Why we feel we need too is another story… For me I have had to deal with a lot of changes at different times in my life. Like we all do..

Today I have sat on the rocks by the sea and done what I call my “Saying goodbye Ritual” This I think I started when I lost my brother at the age of 14(me) he was only 16.  I had to find a way to let go.. Then when my partner of 16yrs passed away I had to deal with not only his passing but the change of a completely different life style too.  So then too I used my Saying Goodbye ritual.  When you lose someone so close to you it is so hard to understand the why’s of it all. Sadly there are no real answers. Things just happen, life just happens. It’s hard we deal with it that helps us get to the other side. At the age of 14 we can’t begin to understand any of it so it can fester. I became a real little bitch for about a year. Until I realized it was me, not the rest of the world that had a problem.. Time to deal with it.. So I invented my little ritual.  As I have got older I have realized it wasn’t me that invented this,  it happens all over the world.

Ok my “Saying Goodbye Ritual” What do I do?  This is the easy bit.. First I write a list of everything I know I can’t have anymore. Sounds like a bucket list in reverse.  What I mean by things; can be something as silly as not getting my own way on a matter,that doesn’t happen often now as it’s just me… realizing I’ve left doing something I have always wanted to do to late. Some will say it’s never to late, but hey get real yes it can be.  The emotions of the heart is always a hard one . Hardest a death of a loved one or saying goodbye to the best friend you ever had, because you have too is even sometimes harder as they are still around but out of reach. I think you get the picture what ever you need to let go of….

I can remember years ago a friend of mine saw a list I had and she thought I was mad;  until she had problems in her relationship. She came to me (I seem to always have younger friends) asking for help. So out came pen and paper; do the list, write what annoys you, think about it,  is it that bad,  rate it,  deal with it,  say goodbye to it. Ok some of the things were silly to me but not to her.  The way he left the toothbrush on the vanity can get to some women “hey let it go it don’t matter” he’ll stop doing it when you stop moaning about it.  Hey it worked they are married now with 3 kids doing great.  And she does her “goodbye lists”

Ok so when I write I go from one thing to another, ha ha get over it, it’s my blog you’ll get used to it. Put it on your list.

Where this blog started.. me sitting on the rocks by the sea with my list. A pretty long one this time. Could of had something to do with having a big birthday last week.. Another turning point in my life.  Have you ever made a boat out of paper, well thats what I do with my list, make a paper boat of it. This time I actually made the boat but put my list that I had turned into pretty strips of paper in it. I have changed it a bit so if it didn’t float away the strips of paper would still fly away. As I float the paper I wish it a great journey and say goodbye. I know this can sound a little silly to some. But when you have had a lot of loses in your life you have to find what ever works for you. This does for me even if now and then I have to repeat it until it has finely gone. I have tried to add a lovely photo to this blog of the rocks I spend a lot of time sitting on. But for some reason it won’t add. Will continue this when I have it all worked out. In the mean time do your list think about it say goodbye to it.. Truly it works ))

Done it!!!

FaceBook,Bebo,Social Media sites friend or foo???

Ok we will all have differing opinion on this subject.  But it will all depend on what experiences you have had on any of the Social Media sites. Some I’m sure are like me and enjoy the inter action you can have with people you know and people you don’t know from all over the world.

I started this journey a few years ago.  A friend got me into internet marketing looking for a way to work from home or anywhere in the world. Well that side of it is still a long way off for me, but hopefully get there one day.  Have so many dreams of traveling so need to work on it harder.

I joined a group called the Thirty Day Challenge which has been an eye opener for me to the rest of the world.  Have met some wonderful people from around the globe and here in little old NZ.  Have learnt a lot too I hope.  The world has opened up so much, the days of writing a letter, waiting til after 7pm to ring someone in different country have well and truly gone. We can twit, skype, IM, email, video call, you name we can do it..

My question is; Is that good or bad????

What does it open up. Ok for us friendly fork it’s a wonderful toy chatting away to friends and family that you never would have had the chance to do before.  But and the big but is the side I have for the first time just discovered for myself.  Only in a small way but in some ways a sad way too.  To explain it’s easy.  I had a message for friendship on my Facebook site.  To some that happens everyday no problem.  But when you get a request of friendship it’s usually someone who finds you interesting or they know you from a different time in life.  But then there are those that want to befriend for the sole purpose of keeping an eye on you and another friend on your list.  At first I thought oh this is sweet,  now why would they want to communicate with me, there is no reason for it.  Have known them in the past but not what I would call a friend.  To be truly honest someone I didn’t really want to befriend,  for my own selfish reasons.  So what do you do , Ignore it.  But what happens if they send the request a few times.  Wouldn’t you think they would know you  have ignored their requests. You’d think so aye.  But then like a lot of us we have only to google a name and all our life is open for inspection.   I know my name is all over the place,  all harmless websites just sitting there waiting for me to wake up and do something with them.  Sadly though it is another way to get to someone. Spam blockers on this site is a must.  Was able to delete request and other spam that really surprised me too.

So are these social media sites friend or foo?? I think they have found a way for us to be pretty safe if we use our heads. Don’t go thinking everyone that whats to befriend you is for a good reason.  People are  easily fooled into thinking you want to know them for all the right reasons.  Dah not.  I found this interesting article on social media sites pretty sad really, there are so many people addicted to these sites.  Ha I better be careful I might be one of them.  We can close ourselves off from the rest of the world so easily.  If your in a relationship it can be very harmful in a way, as for the first time you realize your partner has over 200 friends (a lot of them the opposite sex too) from all over the world that you have never met and probably never will. They share a lot of our lives if not sometimes more.  And  don’t you notice everyone seems beautiful:-p  Maybe it’s because they use pictures that ain’t really themselves and who would know or for that matter really care.  It’s another risk in life that we take everyday.  Stay safe in the known world or explore the big wide world.  I for one will keep on exploring but at the same time use my head and stay safe,  then for me the social media sites become friend  not foo…

Ok I’m off  to visit people in the real world.  We need that balance too, I am capable of turning off my computer at times.

The sun is shining so enjoy, as I will )

Just Can’t Sleep Followup

Well I can tell you giving yourself a telling off turning over and trying to go back to sleep.  “Just Don’t Work” as if we didn’t know that aye.

I really  had hardly any sleep last night and boy does it affect the day. So slow to get going this morning and just noticed I have really done nothing and it’s already 11.30. Have a list in front of me with 10 things on it that I need to get done today. Well I have only done one which is really bad for me. I have a morning list and an afternoon list, and try to stick to it. So it does go to show sleep or lack of it has a big effect on your day. mine anyway,  I’ve even found my cat is in a bad mood today, I suppose she too was kept  awake by me moving around too.

I have to say I have never been a good sleeper, but if I get at least 5hours I’m ok,  but only getting 2 or 3 and thats not all at once just doesn’t suit me.

So what do I do tonight to make sure I have a good sleep. I’m going to try having nothing to eat after 7.30, even go to bed a bit later. Write down what has been a worry for me today (boy that will be a big list) But go over it and clear it up in my mind. Figure that way I’ll have nothing for my brain to go over and over.

So happy sleeping to you all, we’ll see how we go.

Have a great day in paradise where ever you are

Just Can’t Sleep

Ok it would have to be the most annoying thing: Not being able to just go to sleep. Yes day light saving has just started here in New Zealand, but that is no excuse for my brain to go on a journey of its own to unknown places, when all I want to do is go to sleep.

Why does this happen. If your like me I go to bed normally around 10.30 pm that is. I like to read a thoughtless book that I know won’t have me reading till I finish it. Take all the pills my body needs to relax my buggered back and elbow at the moment. But for some silly reason nothing is working out as it should. I find my brain wants to either think over the day and change it to what I would have really liked the day to be. Or it decides to write a book. (thats no joke)

I found this funny video just put in can’t sleep and there are heaps thinking the same as me. Glad to know I’m not the only one out there up at all hours of the night. Sorry if there is some language you might not like in video I didn’t make it.

So why can’t we sleep? Is there a medical reason for it. Did I eat to many chocolate biscuits before going to bed or does our brains just not need as much sleep as we’re told we need. I know my body needs it so why not just lay in bed and rest the body. Ha yeah right. I couldn’t just lie there and look at the ceiling restoring the body while the brain is going around the world in 80 days.

Here’s an article I found telling me all the things I need to do to help me sleep. Sorry but I’ll be up all night reading it now, but it does have some good tips and reasons for us insomniacs as we’re lovingly known as.

I know there are so many personsonel reasons why most of us can’t sleep and boy do I have lots of them. Sometimes I just find in my life when things aren’t going my way my brain starts going another way. It’s called It’s own way. I want things to be how I want them to be, and lay there at night thinking what did I do wrong to make this or that happen. We know in our own way we can’t always have everything work out how we want it, but hey why not… but not sleeping isn’t going to help how you feel or see things. Actually it’ll probably make it worse.

So what to do…. I’ll just give myself a real telling off now, go back to bed put my head on the pillow and just go to sleep…. Ok I know that would never work but going to give it a go. So will tell you how I get on later in next post. Happy reading up on tips, they are really  interesting and hopefully helpful to you too.
http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/article/insomnia

Sleep well my friends, sweet dreams and see you somewhere in the world on my travels. (thats my brain being funny)
Deb
Sorry for any spelling mistakes can’t find the new spellcheck button.  Ha could be just lack of sleep…

Great Kiwi Invite now on

What a great idea. I’m sending out invites to everyone I know over seas. Putting them in the draw to win a trip to New Zealand.you can do it too.

Because I’m doing this post through facebook it doesn’t have a when that I can find to put in link so it’s copy and paste sorry.

http://www.newzealand.com/thegreatkiwiinvite/

Have fun

Thoughts on gravity and the body

I’m getting myself ready to go out.. Yes I know it’s early, but I stop and do things like this so takes me ages and I’m a woman after all.

I thought I’d look up what the word gravity meant in my dictionary (they all are a bit different in meaning).
I was looking for a meaning to why the body goes south as we get older. Always been told it’s because of gravity. Well below is the meaning of the word in my dictionary.

The Macquarie Dictionary:
Gravity..1. the force of attraction by which terrestrial bodies tend to fall towards the centre of the earth. 2. seriousness; dignity; solemnity. 3. serious or critical character.

So thats it. Can someone tell me where it says. It’s because of gravity my eyelips are lower than they were 10years ago, why my upper body is getting close to my middle body, why my behind will won’t go there but you get the meaning. Must tell you too I ain’t that old..

What I want to know is if I walk around on my hands half the time and my feet the rest will I get back to where I was 10years ago??

Any ideas anyone???